Wednesday, 10 October 2007

Where Have I Been All My Life?

Had my first life drawing class last night.

I was ridiculously nervous. It being a small group, and tutored, and it having been a while and all. And I was a bit worried I might blush.

I learned something. As much as knitting, spinning, crochet is meditative, therapeutic and I couldn't imagine living without making -something- with my hands; this drawing thing feeds my soul. In a poetical justice kind of way I feel so raw and naked telling you this, and scared, and teary.

I have done life drawing before, 14 years ago I did one year of a graphic design degree, it wasn't for me. I hated it, and I was very bad at it. However I did enjoy the illustration class, part of which was life drawing. Since then I have done casual un-tutored classes here and there, but nothing since having children.

The class finished at 9.30pm. It took me until midnight to wind down enough to go sleep, I was wired.

Now for the funny parts.

When I showed my husband he said, "You drew his doodle."

Which is funny for lots of reasons, but also because I was -this- close to leaving the poor man with a gaping blank space, and whilst most of the time apart from the initial two seconds, you just don't think about it, I still don't like to stare at that particular bit*, but you kind of have to, to get it right.

I think because of the way men 'work' my husband assumes that the sight of doodles excite me. He is SO wrong.

He mentioned it again this morning, trying to think of something funny to say to his work mates about how his wife was off drawing penises last night. I mean, really!

I suppose I am fortunate that he is not the jealous, over protective type. Which brings me to a question, is it safe for me to walk home at 9.30pm at night, even though it is only just around the corner? Husband thinks I'm a lunatic to even consider taking the car, but then he also expected me to walk 20 minutes in the middle of the night through a park, when there were reports of a serial rapist in the area. I point blank refused to walk on that occasion, but he makes me feel as though I'm being a silly scaredy cat when this thing is just around the corner. What do you think?


*I had a very sheltered good christian upbringing. Church every Sunday. Hardly ever allowed to go to parties. Not allowed to listen to secular music. Not allowed to have boyfriends. So, I had reached the ripe old age of 18, without so much as kissing a boy, I was a good obedient child, unwilling to rock the boat. (Once I left home I made up for lost time fairly quickly, I might add.)

So, when confronted with a naked man, in my first year of university, I looked every which way, except the direction I was supposed to look, and for the first pose he was standing full frontal in my direction, he had 360 degrees to choose from, the class was in a circle, and he faced me, dear God!. I think I spent the entire first life drawing class as red as a beetroot. I favoured drawing their faces, neck and shoulders. Suffice to say, I much preferred the female models, which I didn't find so confronting. I am not so concerned now, but I still feel a little self conscious about drawing doodles. Silly.

22 Comments:

Blogger Aunty Evil said...

Ooooh I love that!

I can't draw a stick man to look like a stick man, so I really admire that I can look at your drawing and tell what it is.

Good for you to be doing something you love!

As for walking home, no way in the world would I. Take the car. It's just not worth the risk.

Don't leave you or your family open to such laments as "if only...".

10 October 2007 at 16:41  
Anonymous kirsty said...

Do not even CONSIDER walking!! Take the car. You are not being silly, you are being SENSIBLE. I don't think men understand what it's like to feel vulnerable (in terms of personal safety) because they so seldom are. I tried to explain it to my large husband once and he told me that he can't think of a single time when he felt threatened or uncomfortable. We should be so lucky!

Oh, and, doodles? Quite tricky to draw well. I suggest careful and close study.

10 October 2007 at 19:18  
Blogger Lee said...

Well done!

10 October 2007 at 20:14  
Blogger Melinda said...

TAKE THE CAR!

"Doodle" made me giggle... I'm sure you knew it would. Your sketches are beautiful. I love the clean lines. I hope you post more as you go on. I'm always amazed at seeing what other people are capable of creating with just their hands, minds and a few tools. Amazing.

11 October 2007 at 00:11  
Blogger crafty said...

Thanks Aunty, it's a learnt skill, you could draw a decent stick figure if you only wanted to.

Kirsty, it sounds like you are an expert on doodles, are you speaking from experience?

Lee and Melinda, thankyou.

11 October 2007 at 07:22  
Blogger Tanya Brown said...

Say, these are marvelous! You're an inspiration.

As far as walking home at 9:30 at night in the dark, I don't know how far "just around the corner" is, but I don't blame you for being cautious. My experience is that being a woman means avoiding situations most men wouldn't even think twice apart. Anecdotally speaking, there have been many women who ended up raped or worse because they were ashamed or afraid to make a stink about someone following them, et cetera.

All of that is my long-winded way of saying that you have to do what makes you feel safe. If husband doesn't like your taking the car because the distance is so short, perhaps he'd like to meet you after class to walk you home? After all, if the distance is as short as he thinks it is, it shouldn't be a problem for him. (Insert snicker at his inevitable complaint here.)

11 October 2007 at 10:24  
Blogger Stomper Girl said...

Lovely drawing.

As for the walk home, is Husband aware that you walk past the illegal br0th*l on the way? I'm a nervous night walker, so if I walked I would be in phone conversation with Fixit a lot, if not the whole way. Maybe ride the pushbike?

Nell says her mother put her off before her first life drawing class by saying that people fall into 2 categories in the doodle-drawing department. You are either a 'fuzzer' or a 'bigger'. She says she got so paranoid about it and that she so didn't want to be a 'bigger' that she ended up being a 'fuzzer' by default. Which were you?

How to shut Husband up: Confide that you were slightly aroused because the doodle in question was so enormous.

This is a very long comment.

11 October 2007 at 10:40  
Blogger crafty said...

Thanks Tanya.

Stomper! Oh Dear, I think I may be both.

Big and fuzzy. Which is probably an improvement on a blank spacer don't you think?

I half wish you hadn't told me that. Only half because it is hilarious, half beause now I'm paranoid.

I hope we get a woman next week.

11 October 2007 at 12:41  
Blogger shara said...

I agree with the consensus about your drawing. But it's the writing! Gorgeous.

11 October 2007 at 14:42  
Blogger Fairlie said...

Take the car.

Your drawings are great!

(And I love your new banner etc!)

11 October 2007 at 17:54  
Blogger Sheeps Clothing said...

Perhaps you'll draw the woman "big and fuzzy" too.
As a woman, I think I'd rather be rendered as a blank space than a big and fuzzy one....
Great drawing, I wish I could draw, but I am really bad at it. Really, really bad.

11 October 2007 at 20:23  
Blogger h&b said...

I used to *love* life-drawing, you are really good.

For quite a shy, sexually innocent type, I just love checking out men in the buff. Doodles are interesting, I reckon.

As for the car/walk thing ... I used to walk home from my bar job at 2am in the morning, along dark, unlit streets. I used to love the silence and cleansing of it all.

Then I got a 'there but for the Grace of God' type scare that cured me of that particular enjoyment.

I missed the walk, but hey, I survived my 20's !

Don't walk.

11 October 2007 at 22:29  
Blogger meggie said...

Great drawing!
Great post!
Take the car!!

12 October 2007 at 07:10  
Blogger Louise said...

Oh my that is one of the best posts I have read in ages. You are very funny and very talented. But take the car, I would hate to lose you when I have only just found you!

12 October 2007 at 07:15  
Blogger Hey Teach! said...

Great sketches - I can't draw a stick figure that anyone could recognize, so I am very impressed. It's great that you are doing something you love. Take the car and if your husband says anything tell him it's either that or the "doodle" drives you home.

12 October 2007 at 13:25  
Anonymous SimC said...

ha ha ha. this made me laugh. although i didn't realise it was a doodle until you said. i thought it was a dark mass that he was leaning on. hang on, i'm not making out your drawings are crap, they are actually excellent, love them, are you going to frame them? boo hoo, missed craft (read gossip) this week and will miss it next week, will be hanging out by the time i go. also, i would drive too. see ya matie.

12 October 2007 at 18:58  
Blogger Suse said...

Wow, I'm so impressed that a) you can draw so beautifully and b) that I can comment on your blog again!

Love the banner. Love the drawing. Take the car. Looking at doodles doesn't do much for me either.

12 October 2007 at 20:00  
Blogger Suse said...

ps. can I see the pattern for the tiny knitted mushrooms, pretty please???

12 October 2007 at 20:01  
Blogger Kim said...

I did a life drawing class as part of the art classes I took as a young teenager outside of school. All I remember was the model's hairy muff and the fact her undies were crusty.

Do NOT ask me how I even saw that to notice.

Sometimes the ability for my brain to retain useless information scares even me.

12 October 2007 at 23:55  
Blogger crafty said...

Thanks everyone.

Suse, yes.

Kim, I'm amazed. Not asking. ??!!!

13 October 2007 at 12:15  
Blogger h&b said...

lol at Kim and crusty undies.

Models should always leave their clothes in a neat pile if they don't unrobe in another room.

If I saw crusty smalls, it would be far too distracting and i'd end up drawing them instead, I reckon...

13 October 2007 at 14:26  
Blogger Sue xx said...

Wow I am impressed your drawings look great. Doodles is just too funny. OH and no way should you walk home at that time of night, take the car!!!!

17 October 2007 at 13:36  

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